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Thursday, June 8th, 2006
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7:35 pm - Fasting And Stuff
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The school year ended today and my fast begins tomorrow. My fast will last a week. After that I will have one one week fast a month for all the summer months and when I am not fasting I will try to come in under 300 calories a day. I want to get rid of this dreaded weight, it's disgusting.
current mood:  excited
current music: Flowing Glower - Deadsy
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| Thursday, June 1st, 2006
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7:12 pm
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Food...
Macaroni Salad -- 70 calories
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Crackers -- 70 calories
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Waffle -- 80 calories
Peas -- 52 calories
Potatoes -- 80 calories
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Total -- 352 calories
Exercise...
300 crunches
current mood:  rushed
current music: Sing Me To Sleep - The Smiths
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| Tuesday, May 30th, 2006
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7:21 pm - Working On Getting Back On Track
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Food...
Cereal -- 60 calories
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Macaroni Salad -- 70 calories
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Potatoes -- 100 calories
Peas -- 52 calories
Salad -- 75 calories
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Total -- 357 calories
Exercise...
900 crunches
I'm feeling all bloated, my period is soon. Dammit.
I have work tomorrow. I am hoping to avoid both lunch and dinner to help make up for the lack of gym time I have been able to have.
current mood: restless
current music: Riders On The Storm - The Doors
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| Sunday, May 28th, 2006
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12:04 pm
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This 12141214, stuff is making me feel fatter, so I think I am going to go back to 400 or less calories. I plan to lower the 400 to 300 or 200 when the summer holiday begins. I really want this weight to go away, I hate being fat.
current mood:  frustrated
current music: Bang! - The Yeah Yeah Yeahs
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| Friday, May 26th, 2006
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10:41 pm - 400 Day
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Food...
Pancake -- 90 calories
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Sandwich -- 220 calories
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Total -- 310 calories
Exercise...
300 crunches
current mood:  drained
current music: Sleep To Dream - Fiona Apple
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| Thursday, May 25th, 2006
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6:48 pm - 100 Day
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Cereal -- 40 calories
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Salad -- 50 calories
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Total -- 90 calories
I am so sick today that I didn't get to work out. It hurts to move.
current mood:  sore
current music: Light My Fire - The Doors
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| Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
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8:53 pm - 200 Day
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Food...
English Muffin -- 75 calories
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Rice And Vegetables -- 110 calories
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Total -- 185 calories
Exercise...
600 crunches
30 minute walk
My allergies are mega bad and I feel like I'm dying.
current mood: exhausted
current music: The Truth Is Fucked - Division Of Laura Lee
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| Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
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8:24 pm - 100 Day
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Cereal -- 50 calories
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Salad -- 45 calories
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Total -- 95 calories
current mood: happy
current music: Maps - The Yeah Yeah Yeahs
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| Monday, May 22nd, 2006
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9:50 pm - 400 Day
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Food...
Cereal -- 50 calories
English Muffin -- 150 calories (eck)
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Tomato Soup -- 90 calories
Sandwich -- 90 calories
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Total -- 380 calories
Total After Exercise (340 calories) -- 40 calories
Exercise...
Treadmill/30 minutes -- 227 calories
Stair Master/15 minutes -- 113 calories
600 crunches
current mood: drained
current music: Lips Like Morphine - Kill Hannah
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| Sunday, May 21st, 2006
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9:07 pm
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(Yesterday -- 200 calories day)
Noodles -- 120 calories
Bread -- 50 calories
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Total -- 170 calories
I was a good girl yesterday. Today, was not so good. I went to my friend's house for his Senior Send-Off Party and his parents were hell bent on me eating. I wish I could have just purged it all away, but there were so many people there. I was to only have 100 calories today, but that definitely did not happen. Tomorrow is my 400 day and I should be going to the gym, so it should be a better day. I just want people to let me eat when and what I want!
current mood: frustrated
current music: That's My Boy - VAST
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| Friday, May 19th, 2006
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11:23 pm
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Nothing.
Exercise...
600 crunches
I don't feel like I lost any weight. I feel more like I gained.
current mood: cranky
current music: Don't Leave The Light On Baby - Belle And Sebastian
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4:00 pm
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I decided I am going to throw out the juice fast starting tomorrow because I thought about it and said 'my metabolism probably sucks completely'. I am going to start the 2468 deal, but with a little twist, 2141214. I cannot let myself eat more than 400 calories, I feel too guilty about it. Oh, lets hope for some weight loss magic.
current mood: rejuvenated
current music: Delicate - Damien Rice
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| Thursday, May 18th, 2006
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9:16 pm
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Nothing was eaten.
Exercise...
300 crunches
current mood: mellow
current music: The Smokers And The Children Will Be Cast Down - Showbread
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| Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
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9:13 pm
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Food...
Salad -- 80 calories
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Total -- 80 calories
Exercise...
45 minute walk
current mood: aggravated
current music: Somewhere Only We Know - Keene
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| Tuesday, May 16th, 2006
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9:49 pm
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Ate nothing... feeling pretty good about that. Let us hope that can keep going for the next week. Well, except for tomorrow because of the family dinner thingy.
Today, my friend, Evan and I hung out for the first time in two months. I am still very very in love with him and probably always will be, but I kept trying not to think about that. So, I just concentrated on not eating even though he offered me pretzels and peanut butter to dip the pretzels into. He looked so cute today too and since he has a girlfriend now (she's really tiny and part of the reason we haven't been hanging out) we do not cuddle like we always did before. I can only hope this will pass and just focus on being skinny and possibly finding something in Derek.
current mood: exhausted
current music: Free - VAST
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| Monday, May 15th, 2006
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8:39 pm - Juice... For A Week
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Tomorrow, I am starting a juice fast that will last for a week. I will have to eat supper on Wednesday though because of the yearly 'Yvonne, Kathy, Mandie and Jade have a family get together'. I think I can get away with eating a very small salad. Here is my plan for the week as to why I am not eating...
Tuesday - Ate with Evan.
Wednesday - Have to eat... damn.
Thursday - Not feeling well.
Friday - Just not be hungry.
Saturday - Hide food away and throw it out when Dad goes to bed.
Sunday - Say I ate at Dad's.
Monday - Go straight to bed after the gym or say I ate with Fred.
I really hope this fast works out. I really would like to be atleast 105 by the end of this month. After this fast I think I will then go on the 2468 diet. Hopefully, much good will come out of this and I will not be starving for nothing.
current mood:  determined
current music: Shutterbug - Veruca Salt
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7:34 pm
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--Yesterday--
Muffin -- 60 calories
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(The Mother's Day Meal)
Potatoes -- 100 calories
Noodles -- 90 calories
Stuffing -- 70 calories
Peas -- 27 calories
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Total -- 347 calories
--Today--
Cereal -- 36 calories
Bread -- 60 calories
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Potatoes -- 90 calories
Stuffing -- 140 calories
Green Beans -- 17 calories
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Total -- 343 calories
Exercise...
300 crunches
current mood: sick
current music: The Good Old Days - The Libertines
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| Saturday, May 13th, 2006
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9:28 pm
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Food...
Veggie Sausage -- 80 calories
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Pears (the baby food kind) -- 40 calories
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Sandwich -- 150 calories
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Total -- 270 calories
Exercise...
300 crunches
current mood:  bored
current music: Columbia - Oasis
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4:36 pm
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I have decided that I will only tell Derek about my food issues if he asks about it. I cannot bring it up on my own and I do not want to scare him away. I cannot wait until he comes back from his vacation. Hopefully, I will have lost my 10 pound goal for this month and I will look fab and thin. I must be skinny!
I have been looking through the Teen People that I get all weekend (I don't really read it so much, I like the thinspiration pictures) to keep me from eating too much. I recommend everyone go out and get it, it's the '25 Hottest Stars Under 25' issue. Much thinness going around. Nice pictures of Nicole, Lindsay, Mary-Kate and random ad models.
I was to be 95 pounds by mid-June. With school letting out in less than a month, I will be able to not eat as much without it being as noticable. I will be getting my drivers license at the end of June, so I can go places to avoid meal time.
I am really hoping that this will be a great summer for me. Then, I can go back to school at 90 or 95 pounds and looking great! Maybe I will even wear a swimsuit this summer without covering up all the time. Ha, I can only hope.
I will be back later for the food and exercise for the day. So far I have had only 120 calories!
current mood: hopeful
current music: Vertigo - The Libertines
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| Friday, May 12th, 2006
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7:37 pm
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--Yesterday--
Cereal -- 60 calories
Bread -- 80 calories
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Sandwich -- 100 calories
Salad -- 50 calories
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Total -- 290 calories
Exercise...
300 crunches
--Today--
Cereal -- 55 calories
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Pretzels -- 100 calories
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Salad -- 60 calories
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Total -- 215 calories
Exercise...
600 crunches
current mood: content
current music: Purple Haze - Jimi Hendrix
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